It has been exactly one year…/Hace un año…

WoW, it has been exactly one year since my last post. So much has happened and my relationship with God has grown a lot. The last time I wrote on this blog I had to deal with some hard events in my life and in the church I was attending at that time. My faith has been tested and has grown, friendships have ended or others have been strengthened and I am reminded more and more that only God remains constant, pure, holy and true. I’m back and looking forward to sharing how marvelous God is.

WoW! Hace un año que he escrito en mi blog. Muchas cosas me han pasado y mi relación con Dios ha crecido mucho. La última vez que he escrito, tenía muchos problemas y desafíos  en mi vida personal y en la iglesia donde asistía. He crecido en mi fe, he terminado algunas amistades pero también me he dado cuenta de mis verdaderos amigos. Dios siempre me ha recordado que solo El es constante, puro, santo y fiel. 

Bueno, he regresado y voy a seguir compartiendo con ustedes la maravilla de Dios.


Haciendo Galletas/Cookie-Baking Christians

As Christians, we seem to be worried more about baking cookies, thinking that this is our ministry when in fact we hide behind the “baking cookies ministry”, than to reach out to the souls of the people we know.  Don’t get me wrong, the Lord commands us to be hospitable and to show love for one another (1 Peter 4:9). God commands us to love one another. However, what is the purpose of all this? To just caress our egos and to be liked?  We do this to honour God and to provide an opportunity to share the Gospel, not only in action but in words. There is a church I know that is great at baking cookies. Every summer they hold a huge free BBQ in a high-risk neighbourhood that has a lot of gangs and a large population of immigrant-muslims. From a wordly perspective, it is a great success; many people come out and enjoy the free meal. However, I asked a relative who attends the church and participates in the BBQ if her church provides an opportunity to witness, she skirted the issue and said that it was the church’s priority to make their presence known in the community. Is this church taking the opportunity to witness? To talk about Jesus Christ? Are they thinking ‘we’ll just bake the cookies, and let God will find a way’?

Our reasons for doing, our reasons for being is the Gospel and nothing else.  It is so easy to hide behind our “good works” and not take that step of faith because we want to protect ourselves, protect our pride and make ourselves look good and be liked. I’ll be the first to admit that sharing the Gospel for me is not easy. I get very nervous because I don’t want to mess up. I’ve had successful and very unsuccessful moments in sharing the Gospel but I never regret it because I’ve done what God has commanded us to do.

How many cookies are we going to bake before we put down that spatula and get real with our friends, family, neighbours and strangers  and talk to them about Christ. The time for salvation is now (2 Corinthians 6:2). Let us not be fearful, let us not worry about ourselves more than others.  Souls are at stake. Let us share the Gospel and bake cookies.

El Señor Salvó la Vida de Mi Hijo/The Lord Just Saved My Son’s Life

Hoy, Dios salvó la vida de mi hijito. Gracias, Señor por evitar un accidente horrible. Si no hubieras puesto tu mano en esta situación, mi bebecito habría estado muerto.

Today, God saved my son’s life. Thank you Lord for preventing a terrible accident. If your hand had not been in this situation, my baby would have been dead.

The Unrepentant Repenter by Jim Cliff

Please read the following article on repentance. It is wonderful and had helped me greatly on my road to restoration with Christ.  I used to repent like #2, 3, 4 and 5. As I said in my other post, repentance is more than just saying ‘I’m sorry’.

Desafortunadamente, no hay una traducción de este artículo en español. Un día lo traduciré.

The Unrepentant Repenter

BY: Jim Elliff

The believer in Christ is a lifelong repenter. He begins with repentance and continues in repentance. (Rom. 8:12-13) David sinned giant sins but fell without a stone at the mere finger of the prophet because he was a repenter at heart (2 Sam. 12:7-13). Peter denied Christ three times but suffered three times the remorse until he repented with bitter tears (Mt. 26:75). Every Christian is called a repenter, but he must be a repenting repenter. The Bible assumes the repentant nature of all true believers in its instruction on church discipline. A man unwilling to repent at the loving rebuke of the church can be considered nothing more than “a heathen and a tax collector.” (Mt. 18:15-17)

What is repentance?

Repentance is a change of mind regarding sin and God, an inward turning from sin to God, which is known by its fruit—obedience. (Mt. 3:8; Acts 26:20; Lk. 13:5-9) It is hating what you once loved and loving what you once hated, exchanging irresistible sin for an irresistible Christ. The true repenter is cast on God. Faith is his only option. When he fully knows that sin utterly fails him, God takes him up. (Mt. 9:13b) He will have faith or he will have despair; conviction will either deliver him or devour him.

The religious man often deceives himself in his repentance. The believer may sin the worst of sins, it is true; but to remain in the love of sin, or to be comfortable in the atmosphere of sin, is a deadly sign, for only repenters inhabit heaven. The deceived repenter would be a worse sinner if he could, but society holds him back. He can tolerate and even enjoy other worldly professing Christians and pastors well enough, but does not desire holy fellowship or the fervent warmth of holy worship. If he is intolerant of a worship service fifteen minutes “too long,” how will he feel after fifteen million years into the eternal worship service of heaven? He aspires to a heaven of lighthearted ease and recreation—an extended vacation; but a heaven of holiness would be hell to such a man. Yet God is holy, and God is in heaven. He cannot be blamed for sending the unholy man to hell despite his most articulate profession (Heb. 12:14).

What are the Substitutes for true Repentance?

1. You may reform in the actions without repenting in the heart. (Ps. 5 1: 16-17; Joel 2:13) This is a great deception, for the love of sin remains. (I Jn. 2:15-17; Acts 8:9-24) At this the Pharisees were experts. (Mk. 7:1-23) The heart of a man is his problem. A man may appear perfect in his actions but be damned for his heart. His actions are at best self-serving and hypocritical. What comes from a bad heart is never good. “Does a spring send forth fresh water and bitter from the same opening? Can a fig tree, my brethren, bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Thus no spring yields both salt water and fresh.” (Jas. 3:11-12)

2. You may experience the emotion of repentance without the effect of it. Here is a kind of amnesia. You see the awful specter of sin in the mirror and flinch out of horror yet immediately forget what kind of person you saw (Jas. 1:23-24). It is true, repentance includes sincere emotion, an affection for God and a disaffection for sin. Torrents of sorrow may flood the repenter’s heart, and properly so (Jas. 4:8-10). But there is such a thing as a temporary emotion in the mere semblance of repentance; this emotion has very weak legs and cannot carry the behavior in the long walk of obedience. Your sorrow may even be prolonged. Yet if it does not arrive at repentance, it is of the world and is a living death—and maybe more (2 Cor. 7: 10). It is an old deceiver. Judas had such remorse but “went and hanged himself.” (Mt. 27:3-5)

3. You may confess the words of a true repenter and never repent. (Mt. 21:28-32; 1 Jn. 2:4, 4:20) Confession by itself is not repentance. Confession moves the lips; repentance moves the heart. Naming an act as evil before God is not the same as leaving it. Though your confession may be honest and emotional, it is not enough unless it expresses a true change of heart. There are those who confess only for the show of it, whose so-called repentance may be theatrical but not actual. If you express repentance to appear successful, you will not be successful at repenting. You will speak humbly but sin arrogantly. Saul gave the model confession (I Sam. 15:24-26) and later went to hell. Repentance “from the teeth out” is no repentance.

4. You may repent for the fear of reprisal alone and not for the hatred of sin. Any man will stop sinning when caught or relatively sure he will be, unless there is insufficient punishment or shame attached (I Tim. 1:8-11). When there are losses great enough to get his attention, he will reform. If this is the entire motive of his repentance, he has not repented at all. It is the work of law, but not grace. Men can be controlled by fear, but what is required is a change of heart. Achan admitted his sin after being caught but would not have otherwise. Find his bones in the valley of Achor; his soul, most likely, in hell. (Josh. 7:16-26)

5. You may talk against sin in public like a true repenter but never repent in private. (Mt. 23:1-3) The exercise of the mouth cannot change the heart. Your sin is like a prostitute. You are speaking against your lover in public but embracing her in the bedroom. She is not particular about being run down in public if she can have your full attention in private. “Adulterers and adulteresses! Do you not know that friendship with the world is enmity with God?” (Jas. 4:4)

6. You may repent primarily for temporal gains rather than the glory of God. There are gains for the repenter, but the final motivation for repenting cannot be selfish. Self is a dead, stinking carcass to be discarded. We are to repent because God is worthy and is our respected authority, even if we gain nothing. Indeed, our repenting may appear to lose us more than our sin had gained. (Mt. 16:24-26; Phil. 3:7-8) And this is a test of true repentance.

7. You may repent of lesser sins for the purpose of avoiding the greater sins. (Lk. 11:42) We try to salve our nagging conscience by some minor exercise of repentance, which is really no repentance at all. The whole heart is changed in the believer. The half repenter is a divided man: part against sin and part for it; part against Christ, part for Him. But one or the other must win out, for man cannot serve God and mammon (or any other idol); he must love the one and hate the other. (Mt. 6:24)

8. You may repent so generally that you never repent of any specific sin at all. The man who repents in too great a generality is likely covering his sins. (Prov. 28:13) If there are no particular changes, there is no repenting. Sin has many heads, like the mythological Hydra. It cannot be dealt with in general, but its heads must be cut off one by one.

9. You may repent for the love of friends and religious leaders and not repent for the love of God.
(Isa. 1: 10-17) A man talked into repentance may reform for the love of friends or the respect of the spiritually minded, yet do nothing substantial. If a man turns from sin without turning to God, he will find his sin has only changed its name and is hidden behind his pride. Now it will be harder to rout for its subterfuge. You have loved others but not God. And you have loved yourself most of all. Lot’s wife left the city of sin at the insistence of an angel and for the love of her family, but turned back. She had left her heart. “Remember Lot’s wife.” (Gen. 19:12-26; Lk. 17:32)

10. ‘You may confess the finished action of sin and not repent from the continuing habit of sin. If a man is honest, he is a good man in human terms; but he is not a repenting man until the sin is stabbed to death. He must be a murderer if he would be God’s: “For if you live according to the flesh you will die; but if by the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live.” (Rom. 8: 13) God knows what you have done; what He wants is obedience. (Lk. 6:46)

11. You may attempt repentance of your sin while consciously leaving open the door of its opportunity.
A man who says ” I repent” but will not leave the source or environment of that sin is suspect. Though some situations which invite temptation cannot be changed, most can. A man who will not flee the setting of his temptation when he is able still loves his sin. A mouse is foolish to build his nest under the cat’s bed. “But put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no provision for the flesh, to fulfill its lusts.” (Rom. 13:14)

12. You may make an effort to repent of some sins without repenting of all the sin you know. The businessman learns to show concern for the needs of his clients, yet he batters his wife through neglect. Another gives his money in the offering plate weekly but steals time from his employer daily. Every man boasts of some sins conquered, but true repentance is a repulsion of sin as a whole. The repenter hates all sin, though he fails more readily in some than in others. He may not know all his sins, but what he knows he spurns. Repentance is universal in the believer; the spirit is willing even when the flesh is weak (Mt. 26:41).

Repentance and faith are bound together. A repenting man has no hope for obedience without faith in the source of all holiness, God Himself. In repenting of sins, he loses his self-sufficiency. God is his sanctifier. (Jude 24-25; 1 Thess. 5:23-24; 1 Pet. 1:5)
Repentance is a gift of God (Acts 11:19; 2 Tim. 2:25) and a duty of man (Acts 17:30; Lk. 13:3). You will know if it has been granted by the exercise of it. (Phil. 2:12-13) Do not wait for it; run toward it. “Be zealous and repent.” (Rev. 3:19) Pursue it and you will find it; forget it and perish.

El Arrepentimiento/Repentance

En 2007, me quedé embarazada. No estuve casada con el papá de mi hijo y mi divorcio con mi ex-marido no fue finalizado aunque me había separado de mi marido por 4 años. Ay yay!! Mi vida era como una telenovela! Podrías imaginar cómo me sentía…humiliada y con temor. Me sentí humiliada no por el pecado sino por el hecho que todo el mundo (especialmente mi iglesia) me pilló. Es imposible esconder un embarazo. Quiero enfatizar que separarse de un/a esposo/a no signfica que ya se divorció del esposo/a. El pacto del matrimonio no está incumplido. Estás todavía casado/a. Si estás en una relación íntima con una persona que no es tu esposo/a, es adulterio. No hay ni justificación ni excusa. (Hebreos 13:4)

Tuve que confesar delante de los líderes y miembros de la iglesia. Fue tan difícil que no pude terminar a leer mi confesión. Yo lloraba y quise arrastrarme por debajo de una piedra y desparecer para siempre. Yo les pedí el perdon a mi iglesia y a mi Dios por lo que había hecho. Yo renuncié a mi posición como pianista de La Roca Eterna y empecé un largo proceso de disciplina espiritual. Supe que era necesario pero me molestaba mucho porque creí que yo había cometido un solo pequeñito error y que no era una mala persona. No quise participar en “la propaganda de los malos pecadores” de mi congregación. ¡Caramba! Que mala actitud. Yo no me daba cuenta que mis pastores, en su amor y su deseo para la santidad de Dios para la iglesia, me disciplinaba correctamente y biblicamente. Tuve un corazón duro, estuve cegada de arrogancia y orgullo. Estaba a la defensiva todo el tiempo y no quise acercarme de nadie, especialmente de otros cristianos. Me sentí condenada en cada momento. Cuando un miembro de mi iglesia me saludaba, yo le hablaba por mis dientes y huía de la iglesia como si estuviera en llamas. Creí que todo el mundo me juzgaba y se entrometía en mi vida. En retrospectiva, esas personas solo quisieron saludarme. Me di cuenta que mi actitud defensiva reveló mi orgullo y mi cariño por mi pecado impenitente. No quise acercarme de verdaderos cristianos porque la presencia de ellos me recordaba de la santidad de Dios. La luz de Dios siempre alumbraba mi oscuridad.

Después de mi divorcio y el nacimiento de mi hijo hermoso, viví con el papa de mi hijo. Yo seguí pecando mientras asistiendo a la iglesia! Esto es un indício de un corazon impenitente porque no me aparté de mis pecados. El perdón no significa “¡Ay! Me pillaron. Lo siento” y no hay cambio. Hay que apartarse del pecado.

Por dos años, el liderazgo de mi iglesia me puso en un proceso exigente del arrepentimiento, restauración y restitución. El Espíritu Santo trabajó fuerte en mí. Empecé a estudiar la Palabra de Dios como nunca, asistir a los estudios biblicos, y orar frecuentamente. El Espíritu me renovaba y me acercaba a mi Dios. Yo perdoné a los que me lastimaron y pedí el perdon a los que yo lastimé. No viví más con mi novio. Yo puse fin a llamarlo “mi marido” porque era mentira. Yo lo llamaba “mi marido” para justificar mi pecado. Me dije que yo iba a casarme con él. ¡Que mentira! Es en contra de la Palabra de Dios. Es un pecado. Finalmente, tuve que terminar la relación con mi novio. Fue muy difícil porque yo lo había querido pero no era cristiano (todavía no es) y había rechazado la divinidad de Cristo. Yo estaba desconsolada y me sentí más sola que antes porque iba a ser madre soltera de dos niños.

El proceso del arrepentimieto y restauración requiere el rechazo del yo, una limpieza, el deseo de morir para que Cristo viva. Mi transformación fue de la humillación-enojo-rencor a la humildad-arrepentimiento-restauración-restitución para que pueda servir a mi Señor. Valió la pena y nunca quiero volver atrás.

Hoy, regreso a servir en el ministerio de música  y también estoy participando en nuevos ministerios. Antes, quise participar en los ministerios que me gustaron. Me da mucha alegría servir a Dios porque es para su gloria y no la mía.

Yo doy gracias a mi pastores y amigos de La Roca Eterna. Los quiero mucho. Gracias por su paciencia, amor y bondad que me ayudaron durante mis momentos difíciles.

Gracias a mi Señor y Salvador por restaurarme y poner La Roca Eterna en mi vida. Gracias Señor por mis hijos.

In 2007, I found out that I was pregnant. I wasn’t married to the father of my son and my divorce wasn’t finalized with my ex-husband, with whom I had been separated for close to 4 years at the time. My goodness! It was like a soap opera. You could probably imagine how I was feeling…embarrassed and afraid. I was embarrassed not because I had sinned (I did feel bad about it) but because I got caught.  I want to emphasize that being separated from your spouse does not mean you are divorced. You are still bound by the covenant of marriage, and whatever romantic relationship you are involved in with another person, who is not your spouse, is adultery. There is no justification or excuse, no matter how you feel. (Hebrews 13:4).

I had to confess my sins before the leaders and the members of my church. It was so hard that I couldn’t even read my written confession. I was crying and I wanted to crawl under a rock and disappear. I asked for forgiveness from my church and from God for what I had done. and I had to step down as pianist of the church and go into a process of spiritual discipline. I knew I had to step down but I harboured resentment and anger because I felt that deep down I had made one mistake but overall I wasn’t a bad person. I didn’t need to be their poster child of bad behaviour in the congregation.  Wow! Quite an attitude, eh? Little did I know then that my leaders, in their love and in their pursuit of God’s holiness for His people, were doing the right thing. My heart was hard, my arrogance and pride blinded me. I was so defensive and didn’t want to be around anybody, especially other Christians. I felt that they were judging me at every moment. If people from my church came up to me to say hello, I would mutter hello and run off because I had figured they were prying into my life and were judging me. The truth was that they really only wanted to say hello. I realized that my defensiveness only revealed my pride and continual attachment to the sin I had supposedly confessed. I didn’t want to be around true Christians because their presence reminded me of God’s holiness and His light constantly revealed my darkness.

After my divorce and the birth of my beautiful boy, I lived with the father of my child. My sin continued even while I was attending church! This is a sign of an unrepentant heart because I did not turn away from my sins.  Forgiveness is not just saying ‘oops, you caught me and I’m sorry’ and I go back to my old ways. You have to turn away from it completely.

For 2 years, my church had me go through the tough process of repentance, restoration and restitution. The Holy Spirit worked wondrously through me. I began to study the Word like never before, attending Bible studies, praying more often, getting convicted by the Spirit as I grew closer to God. I began to forgive those who hurt me and asked for forgiveness from those I unjustly blamed or hurt. I stopped living with my boyfriend. I stopped calling him my husband because it was a lie. I had called him my husband because I didn’t want my sin to seem so bad. I justified it because we were supposed to get married anyway. That is wrong and that is not according to God’s Word. Eventually I had to end our relationship. It was a difficult process because I had still loved him but he was not a Christian and boldly rejected Christ. It broke my heart and I felt even more alone because I was a single mother again but of 2 boys now.

The repentance/restoration process requires a letting go of your self, a cleansing, a dying to the self. I went from humiliation to anger to resentment to humility to repentance to restoration to serving my Saviour. It has been worth it and I don’t want to go back to where I was.

I am back fulfilling not only the ministry I enjoy doing at my church but participating in other ministries that I had never considered before (Previously I had only wanted to do what I liked and what I was good at). It gives me such joy in getting involved because I am doing it for the Lord and for His glory not mine.

Thank you to my wonderful pastors and friends of La Roca Eterna. I love you very much.  Thank you for your patience, love and selflessness during my difficult time.

Thank you to my Lord and Saviour for restoring me and bringing the people of La Roca Eterna in my life and thank you, Lord, for my sons.

Saltando en los brazos de mi Padre celestial/Jumping into my Heavenly Father’s arms

En los próximo meses, mi fe será probada. Quisiera decir que tengo todo el coraje para tener este acto de fe pero a veces quiero contenerme y tratar de controlar la situación. Es muy fácil decir que ponemos nuestra fe en Dios por medio de Jesus Cristo pero la fe sin obras es muerta (Santiago 2:14). Confieso que tengo miedo de “saltar” en el agua. Mi familia y mis amigos solidarios me dicen que tenga que pensar en la seguridad de mis hijos, la seguridad que ofrece el mundo. No hay nada seguro en este mundo, no hay nada que querría de este mundo. Sin embargo, estoy plagada de hacer malas decisiones concernando mi familia. Como madre soltera, es una carga pesada. Me siento como el siervo cobarde en Mateo 25: 14-30 y me da pena por eso. Preocuparse es no tener la fe en mi Señor y esto significa que no conozco a mi Padre, a su ser, a su esencia. Satanás goza con mi preocupación. Durante los momentos dificiles, debo librarme de mis miedos y como un niño tengo que saltar en los brazos de mi Padre celestial. Dios me fortalece. Cuando me siento debil e insegura, hay una cosa que es segura: la fidelidad, promesa y amor de Dios. Mi ser carnal a veces querrá estar en contra del plan de Dios pero el Espíritu Santo tiene más poder. ¿Y quién de vosotros podrá, por mucho que se afane, añadir a su estatura un codo (Mateo 6:27)?

Bueno, Padre,voy a ….saltar

These next few months my faith will be tested. I would like to say that I have the courage and to take that leap but I find myself sometimes holding back and closing off, wanting to try to control the situation. It’s so easy to say in words that we trust God with all our hearts, we put our faith in Him through Christ Jesus but faith without works is dead (James 2:14). I have doubts about the big leap I have to take. I have well-meaning friends and family that tell me that I need to think of my children, cling on to the worldly securities. There is nothing secure in the world and there is nothing in this world that I would want. Yet I am sometimes plagued by making decisions that will affect my children’s lives adversely. As a single mother it can be quite a burden to carry. I feel like the cowardly steward of the masters money (Matthew 25:14-30), which brings me shame. To worry is to not have faith in the Lord and to not know who my Father is. Satan loves it when I panic and worry. It is during these moments that I must relinquish those fears and just jump into my Heavenly Father’s arms. He is my source of comfort and strength. In my weakness and uncertainty, there is only one thing that is certain, God’s faithfulness, love and promise. My fleshly, ungodly self will want to resist but the Holy Spirit is so much stronger. I cannot add a single hour to my life (Matthew 6:25-27).

So, here I go, Father, I’m going to………..jump!


Hay un artículo excelente del blog “Hidden Treasures”. Se trata de la diferencia entre un cristiano pío y un cristiano carnal o terrenal. El autor cita versículos del libro Filipenses. El artículo está en inglés.

This is an excellent article from the Hidden Treasures blog.  It is about the difference between the Godly Christian and the carnal Christian. He references passages from Philippians. Please click on the title below.